Hey girl, dont be sorry for anything. I myself have been busy and stuff. It aint your fault, i understand the amount of pressure on you, SYF, O levels etc, decision making...dont worry, i dont blame you at all. in fact, i hope you and the other girls dont blame me from not communicating with you guys. it has been hard. did i tell you that my school blocks msn, facebook etc from mon to thurs? yeah, i can only use them on friday to sundays...but for this weekend, i cant use them as they arent functioning *grumbles*. so yea, forgive me. i really cant use anything... even my yahoo! the only thing i can use is skype! and a new school email which i hope you have, if you dont. TELL ME! i will type the email address for you
anyway, sorry for replying this sooo late.
i am just wondering now...what decision did you make?
oh yes, i do pray you make the right choice. it is hard...but God will has His way in your life alright?
as for me, well, first week of school was a pain! SERIOUSLY! i cry everyday, stressed, fear and was really weak in faith, i was super duper home sick, i was miserable! however, after 2 weeks in school, i can really see how God is working in me and developing me and even encouraging me.
this week, cant really say it was perfect. cause i was sick for the first 2 days of school...but yea, i started having this inner peace.
i wake up everyday at 530am to do my devotion till 7. and really, it is hard to wake up so early everyday! thank God i sleep by 930pm every night so i get sufficient rest. anyway, devotions has been really wonderful. everyday, God is speaking to me, encouraging me for the day. my mum has given me a challenge to memorise bible verses, so far, i memorise i guess around 4-5?! and really, i thought it was useless...but i was wrong, it has helped me soooo much. whenever i was starting to get emo, i will recite the verse and this peace that is so wonderful will just fill my heart.
God is really teaching me how to rely not on man but on Him. He has been giving me boldness to speak to superiors and friends etc. He has given me favour. My teachers favour me and my friends too. He has given me peace, especially since i am taking the toughest combination of subjects for QSA (bio, chem , physics, maths b, maths c and eng)...so yea, He has been supplying my needs and training me to be a more responsible person.
you know in singapore, i have a maid, hence i am very lazy and stuff. now, i am trained to make my bed, settle my laundry, manage my room, manage my study, manage my clothings, fold clothes, go for dinner, dishes etc. I am really learning a lot!
i guess i really came here, to australia, to be groomed by the maker. indeed it is soooo true that God will never leave you in your darkest hour, and whatever problems you face are things to groom you to be a better person! God is amazing janice! He is working not here and there, but everyday, every single moment of my life!
Yea, more tough times will come, but you know what, God is going infront of me to battle against the difficulties! :)
Regarding me and ben, things has been actually moving quite well. thanks to wm, sms has been sent successful (do thank him for me) and of course, ben and i try to email each other and encourage one other. during the first week when i was depressed, ben was skyping with me and comforting me. i was like breaking down in front of him and he had to encourage me which is quite a change as he is usually the negative one. but now he is being positive and i am negative. i guess these are all God's training grounds?
anyway, things are going quite well. we have been supporting each other in prayer and God has done wonders. I am feeling much better now, ben did well for his test etc.
Well, i guess things are slightly different between you and wm and me and ben. it is really different not being able to see someone for months. but yeah, dont worry janice, i believe God will show you your path and lead you on! as for me and ben, do continue praying for us and that God will lead us as well!
aww...janice, you arent alone in your battles.
I am always there for you, like if you need to email me or smth..in my SCHOOL EMAIL. plus, i am always always praying for you. And even though i am not physically there...let me say this. *hugs* hahah! see you got a hug from me! :) okay lame...the point is, maybe God is making you learn to trust Him and Him alone.
I will not learn how to love and rely solely on God if i didnt come to Australia, taken away from parents for 1 year, friends etc. I have only God as my friend. Yup, hard, but i learn the importance of relying on God. so yes, take everything as a challenge and as a builder of character. its the attitude that counts..
anyway, i gotta go! HAHA!
hope you will read this soon and not weeks later
oh HAPPY EARLY VALENTINES DAY!
love you,
lydia.
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