hey Lydia,
im really sorry i haven been online for the past few days, i haven been on-ing my computer because i really have no time.
homeworks and assignment are rushing me . and there are even research given and due next day first thing in the morning.
(esp. the debating class thing im working on now, about nuclear energy.) goodness!!
I'm so stress and this is just the beginning. because after chinese new year, teachers will be fighting for remedial lessons and im going to start staying in school till 5 or 6 and extra few more class on saturdays! ahhhh! :(((
horrible horrible. but i know God is going to pull me through as long as i cooperate with Him :)))
hahah anyway, about wm and me.
talk to Dani about it, she ask me. what was my top priority now and i said studies and God.
and she was telling me how not to waste my youth not focusing on God.
and if i were and want to go full out for God. i have to be free from all commitments with waimun
means i cant even have the commitment of me saying that im going to get together in the future with him,
and then i talk to wm, i told him, if im going full out for God.
dont wait for me, find someone else. because i will never know when will i ever be ready and by then it would be unfair to him. so yea.
he rejected the idea, he flare up, he was hurt. he was.. not sleeping
he couldnt sleep , it was just raining both in yishun and novena, but novena was raining literally and emotionally with real tears.
not saying im not hurting in the inside, i am, but i wouldnt want to drop a tear because i know this is for God.
not for my gain but for God's gain.
so yea.
friday we are going to have a talk with daniel and dani, wm and me.
i dont know how will it turn out.
and all of them, seems to say. the decisions all lies with me..
i dont know what to do im so stress from school and dance and time and i'm getting hurt.
i dont want suggestions i dont want comments, i dont want words of wisdom
i just want someone to talk to and tell me everything will be alright.
i need someone to hug me...
i just dont know anymore.
hahahahhah anyway, yea talking about studies i need to start researching,
im getting lack of sleep and yea, my mum says i look very tired everyday and yeap
I HAVE CHINESE TUTION NOW hahahah :))
china teacher, not bad eh? :))
hehe anyway, all the best in Aussie and i know that today is Happy Australlia Day.
hehe although you're not an Austrillian i hope today has been a great day for you sweetie :))
anyway, you should be sleeping now and i shall wish you a belated Good Night and Sweet Dream :))
God Bless You Lydia :)
With Much Love,
Janice :)
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Rules VS Relationship
Well, i guess your talk with wm went well. Though there isnt really a conclusion yet, just a pause. Which reminds me, i have yet to talk to ben. Haha! Just to update, ben just read his email (which is wrote about telling my mum and stuff like that), i didnt expect him to read it till friday or saturday though. Anyway, he is feeling insecure, cause i told him i have stuff to tak to him about, like discuss, and he says he feels as though something is about to change. Well, something is about to change, but i reassured him that whatever i am doing, it is to ensure our relationship is secured, GODLY secured.
did i say the correct thing to him?
anyway, i am guilty that though i had a lot fo slacking time today, i didnt really read "when God writes your love story..." sigh, i seem to keep on getting distracted! as if someone or something doesnt want me to continue reading it, even though i am seriously engross in this book!
okay, so i read this chapter already (completed it yesterday night though) HAHA!
the chapter is called, "Rules VS Relationship"
so leslie (the female author) was talking about she setting 2 main rules when in a relationship or about to be in one:
1. Dont have sex till marriage
2. Make sure you date Christian guys that also believe in rule 1.
(okay, kinda short and lousy list, but yeah....ANYWAY!)
so, she somehow figured out that as long as she follow the rules, the dating life of hers is up to her. so ya, she went on from guy to guy. However, she felt distant from God. Last time, according to her, she had placed her hope and confidence in her relationship with Christ, but now she is just desperately clinging on to each relationship she has for a sense of security and purpose. however, her emotions were destroyed.
This is what she wrote,
" The cutting, brutal pain of ending a relationship, no matter how serious or shallow it had been, drove me to constantly lower my "christian" standards and bend the rules as much as possible, so as to somehow hold on to each guy who came into my life. I began to view purity as the edge of a cliff. "as long as i dont fall off the edge of the cliff, i'm fine," i would tell myself. I began to inch closer and closer to the precipice, giving more and more of my physical purity away... With every step close to the edge of the cliff, i had lost some thing precious. Maybe i wasnt sleeping with a new guy every weekend. But i was certainly giving my heart, mind, emotions and body away to a series of guys..."
(NOTE: im not saying we have a series of guys, but what she said really hit me and its like true if we get confused up by our mindset. Like setting rules but not holding on to the real purpose and reason for all your are doing to save your purity)
Well, im going to cut some parts short. So she realise she was wrong, cry out in desperation and realised that God is the author of love. but you know, when we say God is the author of our love life and let go, we do have doubt right like "what if we marry the wrong person?" or "how will i know that he is the right one?"yea, but then after much struggles, she let go.
However, something else she wrote also hit me.
"My God written story began at that moment. God took the pen from my trembling hand and began scripting the most incredible tale imaginable. No, my future husband did not show up at my front door right then. but from that day on, God began healing and restoring the pain of my mistakes and molding and preparing me for true love. Before eric came into my life, God had some important foundation stones to lay in place..."
(seriously, when i read this, i had doubts. what is ben is just a passing phase?!?! i felt terrible...)
anyway, i continue reading the chapter of "rules VS relationship" and the next part i arrive was about piority check.
so ya, lets say we let go of the pen and let God write our love story, what are we suppose to be doing? Like, we cant be slacking around or waiting for a man to drop from the sky. Surely, we have to do something. (i guess this is why ben doesnt really believe in the statement, "if God wants you to be with someone, it will just happen." cause he says it invites a lot of complacency....) Well, i guess that is true, but i have something to add on, "if God wants you to be with someone, it will not just happen. Definitely, you have to release the pen and rely on God, but during that period, do not try to build God into your life, but build your life around God."
Anyway, whatever the author said next, in a way, is what Dani said to us. How do we know God's will for us? By being in a deep relationship with Him first! So if we want to know whether the guy is right or not, we need a deep relationship with God first. Thus, our piority is to strengthen our relationship with God and not skip the step. So, if we want answers from God, we have to pursue God first. Not the man. And seeking Him isnt just a read the bible everyday thing, but a genuine seeking God and just dwelling in His presence and earnestly SEEK Him!
Anyway, i like how the author relied on God and how they drawed close to each other. Eric and Leslie met via being very close friends. they drew close to each other by being excited about sharing about God!They spent hours talking about their King and their faith. And God just guided them into a romantic relationship with Him in the centre! Then the author wrote that many times, we are so caught up in our feelings for the other person that we unwittinfly squeeze God into the background. This becomes confusing and we wonder why God isnt giving us directions. Hence, only when God is truly first place are we ready for a God written love story.
Oh and the author then talks about rules in a relationship (important topic!) and she gave an example of a couple, their relationship ended up disastrous. anyway, the summary of the topic is no matter how many rules we make for ourselves, rules dont create godly relationsjop. only leaning on God and allowing Him to guide and direct every part of our existence will set the stage for a beautiful romance!
Next, there was this analogy of a kid. you know, when our parents tell us to do the dishes or something, we tend to whine and like be annoyed, but we still do it. However, there are time we want to please our parents and show them how much we love them and thus do the dishes willingly without telling them! Likewise, if obeying God is a chore, it becomes a lifeless act of drudgery and we complain the whole way through. We will feel that God is like making our life miserable. However, when we learn who God really is and we base our decision on a passionate love for Him, we find joy and delight in our obedience. We even want to go that extra mile for Him.
***
That was the chapter, in short. Sorry for writing so long. Maybe you know all of this already, but then again, let this be a reminder to both of us k?
Yea, so i really dont want to just put God in my background, i really want Him to be the pillar.
You know when i told my mum about me and ben, she also made a statement, "you think you might be very mature, but you arent ready yet, you arent fully matured yet..." that really struck me. Maybe God wants us (me and ben, or even you and wm) to put a pause first and work on our Christian life. You know, to earnestly seek God and let God groom all of us to be better for each other.
God's plan is greater than us.
That reminds me of what i read in daily bread. They said that God's word is like a head light of a car. It doesnt shine the entire journey, but it shine bright enough for us to move forward and prevent us from falling down or going into any ditches or whatever! Only God can see the entire journey. So i guess we can only trust in Him?!
Well, my talk is still in the weekends. I have more time to let God speak to me.
I hope things are bright at your side!
Do encourage me and pray for me! Im praying for you too!
Lots of Love,
Lydia.
did i say the correct thing to him?
anyway, i am guilty that though i had a lot fo slacking time today, i didnt really read "when God writes your love story..." sigh, i seem to keep on getting distracted! as if someone or something doesnt want me to continue reading it, even though i am seriously engross in this book!
okay, so i read this chapter already (completed it yesterday night though) HAHA!
the chapter is called, "Rules VS Relationship"
so leslie (the female author) was talking about she setting 2 main rules when in a relationship or about to be in one:
1. Dont have sex till marriage
2. Make sure you date Christian guys that also believe in rule 1.
(okay, kinda short and lousy list, but yeah....ANYWAY!)
so, she somehow figured out that as long as she follow the rules, the dating life of hers is up to her. so ya, she went on from guy to guy. However, she felt distant from God. Last time, according to her, she had placed her hope and confidence in her relationship with Christ, but now she is just desperately clinging on to each relationship she has for a sense of security and purpose. however, her emotions were destroyed.
This is what she wrote,
" The cutting, brutal pain of ending a relationship, no matter how serious or shallow it had been, drove me to constantly lower my "christian" standards and bend the rules as much as possible, so as to somehow hold on to each guy who came into my life. I began to view purity as the edge of a cliff. "as long as i dont fall off the edge of the cliff, i'm fine," i would tell myself. I began to inch closer and closer to the precipice, giving more and more of my physical purity away... With every step close to the edge of the cliff, i had lost some thing precious. Maybe i wasnt sleeping with a new guy every weekend. But i was certainly giving my heart, mind, emotions and body away to a series of guys..."
(NOTE: im not saying we have a series of guys, but what she said really hit me and its like true if we get confused up by our mindset. Like setting rules but not holding on to the real purpose and reason for all your are doing to save your purity)
Well, im going to cut some parts short. So she realise she was wrong, cry out in desperation and realised that God is the author of love. but you know, when we say God is the author of our love life and let go, we do have doubt right like "what if we marry the wrong person?" or "how will i know that he is the right one?"yea, but then after much struggles, she let go.
However, something else she wrote also hit me.
"My God written story began at that moment. God took the pen from my trembling hand and began scripting the most incredible tale imaginable. No, my future husband did not show up at my front door right then. but from that day on, God began healing and restoring the pain of my mistakes and molding and preparing me for true love. Before eric came into my life, God had some important foundation stones to lay in place..."
(seriously, when i read this, i had doubts. what is ben is just a passing phase?!?! i felt terrible...)
anyway, i continue reading the chapter of "rules VS relationship" and the next part i arrive was about piority check.
so ya, lets say we let go of the pen and let God write our love story, what are we suppose to be doing? Like, we cant be slacking around or waiting for a man to drop from the sky. Surely, we have to do something. (i guess this is why ben doesnt really believe in the statement, "if God wants you to be with someone, it will just happen." cause he says it invites a lot of complacency....) Well, i guess that is true, but i have something to add on, "if God wants you to be with someone, it will not just happen. Definitely, you have to release the pen and rely on God, but during that period, do not try to build God into your life, but build your life around God."
Anyway, whatever the author said next, in a way, is what Dani said to us. How do we know God's will for us? By being in a deep relationship with Him first! So if we want to know whether the guy is right or not, we need a deep relationship with God first. Thus, our piority is to strengthen our relationship with God and not skip the step. So, if we want answers from God, we have to pursue God first. Not the man. And seeking Him isnt just a read the bible everyday thing, but a genuine seeking God and just dwelling in His presence and earnestly SEEK Him!
Anyway, i like how the author relied on God and how they drawed close to each other. Eric and Leslie met via being very close friends. they drew close to each other by being excited about sharing about God!They spent hours talking about their King and their faith. And God just guided them into a romantic relationship with Him in the centre! Then the author wrote that many times, we are so caught up in our feelings for the other person that we unwittinfly squeeze God into the background. This becomes confusing and we wonder why God isnt giving us directions. Hence, only when God is truly first place are we ready for a God written love story.
Oh and the author then talks about rules in a relationship (important topic!) and she gave an example of a couple, their relationship ended up disastrous. anyway, the summary of the topic is no matter how many rules we make for ourselves, rules dont create godly relationsjop. only leaning on God and allowing Him to guide and direct every part of our existence will set the stage for a beautiful romance!
Next, there was this analogy of a kid. you know, when our parents tell us to do the dishes or something, we tend to whine and like be annoyed, but we still do it. However, there are time we want to please our parents and show them how much we love them and thus do the dishes willingly without telling them! Likewise, if obeying God is a chore, it becomes a lifeless act of drudgery and we complain the whole way through. We will feel that God is like making our life miserable. However, when we learn who God really is and we base our decision on a passionate love for Him, we find joy and delight in our obedience. We even want to go that extra mile for Him.
***
That was the chapter, in short. Sorry for writing so long. Maybe you know all of this already, but then again, let this be a reminder to both of us k?
Yea, so i really dont want to just put God in my background, i really want Him to be the pillar.
You know when i told my mum about me and ben, she also made a statement, "you think you might be very mature, but you arent ready yet, you arent fully matured yet..." that really struck me. Maybe God wants us (me and ben, or even you and wm) to put a pause first and work on our Christian life. You know, to earnestly seek God and let God groom all of us to be better for each other.
God's plan is greater than us.
That reminds me of what i read in daily bread. They said that God's word is like a head light of a car. It doesnt shine the entire journey, but it shine bright enough for us to move forward and prevent us from falling down or going into any ditches or whatever! Only God can see the entire journey. So i guess we can only trust in Him?!
Well, my talk is still in the weekends. I have more time to let God speak to me.
I hope things are bright at your side!
Do encourage me and pray for me! Im praying for you too!
Lots of Love,
Lydia.
A reply, :))
oh my goodness lydia.
everything u said, every knowledge you got, i have recieve them before you DURING THE SAME CIRCUMSTANCES IN MY LIFE!
during worship, during prayer . God has time and time again reminded me that, when your most precious thing is given to God to take hold. that is when you will draw closer to Him . Yes it sounded ironic of the way humans, us, works. but sometimes its really true that we humans are self centred when we have everything.
He also reminded me that when we allow Him to take control He will not destroy but to work it out for us and make the picture clearer then ever.
and yea, yesterday talk went a little side tracked, we went on talking about that previous girl.
im sure you know :)
how he realize that when he first told ben that she was the one and then told ben again i was the one.
he realize that when he first put the list beside her, it all fit , why? because his list was wrong.
his list is based on WHO HE WANTS TO BE , not who he wants to be with...
which made me really think the whole night was i the rebound girl or what so ever, but i cleared it up with him already.
and he also agreed that it is my decision that if i want to open my options, but he has made it clear that he will wait for me, and that is something that i really dont know what to do... i've got to pray... and talk to a few girls.
eg, our female pastor and our very old and faithful cell leader :)
and as i was saying, to be truthful k, i have open my options to ONE guy. why?
because i was attracted to his testimony , when he cried during the secret place before examinations.
( im pretty sure you guess who by now.)
i have never been attracted to his looks ever, not even today. it was just his spiritual side that attracted me.
which fit the first list.
and waimun came along.. and fit all other 2nd and on ward list.
then from then on i really told God i dont know, because first of all, i dont like ,like attracted like? you know? like like? haha , anyway, to the worship leader dude.
but i was attracted to wm for firstly his kindness of buying me the cookie from bundung, and after that incidence everything just fit into place for me to know him.
but i really dont know if i was holding the pen and writing the love story myself, because i really dont know.
maybe we made it possible ourself to know each other? i dont know.
then okay so it goes on and on and on, until 2 nights ago. my youth devotion was talking about the 10 commandment, "Do not commit adultery."
why God gave this command was because He was faithful and pure himself, and thus as children of God and us who is called to be in the likeness of God, we have to be faithful and pure ourself and in my situation, is not to think of being with other guys but with your own guy. to stay faithful and pure to God first then to your earthy prince, my heart was comforted by that, a little reassured that wm was the one.
but i still really dont know.
yesterday wm shared the same thing as my devotion too, about being faithful, and it was in one of his devotion too. or you can called it the couple devotion that we do ==" hahaha. yes it is a couple devotion book pass on by the mum and dad hahah :)
anyway but i still really dont know.
and he goes on sharing about the yearning, wanting in his heart to be able to help out in the youth ministry because of the lack of people. but he was afraid of not being able to handle it well.
esp as a mentor or leader or so on. because daniel opened a few choices for him and he have to choose it himself.
and that was one of the thing i want to find in my earthy prince. but i wouldnt tick it right now because i have yet to know the outcome, maybe that was one of the mistake we did. to move things too fast , we're trying to slow down already, im bringing up the talk about hands holding tomorrow, we discuss it last year and we said we are going to lessen it step by step as we concentrate and walk with God this year .
and yea so now i really dont know, but im really agreeing with you on the fact that we should let God hold the pen, and its really going to be hard, been there a few times, failed in the end.
but yea God is not and never forcing our choice, like dani says God is a gentlemen
and also i was just reminded that if we keep our hands full we can never recieve what God wants to give us,
unless we empty our hands....
yeap, well let me know when u made the decision, and...yea we will work hand in hand with God, praying for each other!! :) and walking step by step together YET individually and specially with God :)))
- Janicee
Love you Lydia and jiayouuu :)))
everything u said, every knowledge you got, i have recieve them before you DURING THE SAME CIRCUMSTANCES IN MY LIFE!
during worship, during prayer . God has time and time again reminded me that, when your most precious thing is given to God to take hold. that is when you will draw closer to Him . Yes it sounded ironic of the way humans, us, works. but sometimes its really true that we humans are self centred when we have everything.
He also reminded me that when we allow Him to take control He will not destroy but to work it out for us and make the picture clearer then ever.
and yea, yesterday talk went a little side tracked, we went on talking about that previous girl.
im sure you know :)
how he realize that when he first told ben that she was the one and then told ben again i was the one.
he realize that when he first put the list beside her, it all fit , why? because his list was wrong.
his list is based on WHO HE WANTS TO BE , not who he wants to be with...
which made me really think the whole night was i the rebound girl or what so ever, but i cleared it up with him already.
and he also agreed that it is my decision that if i want to open my options, but he has made it clear that he will wait for me, and that is something that i really dont know what to do... i've got to pray... and talk to a few girls.
eg, our female pastor and our very old and faithful cell leader :)
and as i was saying, to be truthful k, i have open my options to ONE guy. why?
because i was attracted to his testimony , when he cried during the secret place before examinations.
( im pretty sure you guess who by now.)
i have never been attracted to his looks ever, not even today. it was just his spiritual side that attracted me.
which fit the first list.
and waimun came along.. and fit all other 2nd and on ward list.
then from then on i really told God i dont know, because first of all, i dont like ,like attracted like? you know? like like? haha , anyway, to the worship leader dude.
but i was attracted to wm for firstly his kindness of buying me the cookie from bundung, and after that incidence everything just fit into place for me to know him.
but i really dont know if i was holding the pen and writing the love story myself, because i really dont know.
maybe we made it possible ourself to know each other? i dont know.
then okay so it goes on and on and on, until 2 nights ago. my youth devotion was talking about the 10 commandment, "Do not commit adultery."
why God gave this command was because He was faithful and pure himself, and thus as children of God and us who is called to be in the likeness of God, we have to be faithful and pure ourself and in my situation, is not to think of being with other guys but with your own guy. to stay faithful and pure to God first then to your earthy prince, my heart was comforted by that, a little reassured that wm was the one.
but i still really dont know.
yesterday wm shared the same thing as my devotion too, about being faithful, and it was in one of his devotion too. or you can called it the couple devotion that we do ==" hahaha. yes it is a couple devotion book pass on by the mum and dad hahah :)
anyway but i still really dont know.
and he goes on sharing about the yearning, wanting in his heart to be able to help out in the youth ministry because of the lack of people. but he was afraid of not being able to handle it well.
esp as a mentor or leader or so on. because daniel opened a few choices for him and he have to choose it himself.
and that was one of the thing i want to find in my earthy prince. but i wouldnt tick it right now because i have yet to know the outcome, maybe that was one of the mistake we did. to move things too fast , we're trying to slow down already, im bringing up the talk about hands holding tomorrow, we discuss it last year and we said we are going to lessen it step by step as we concentrate and walk with God this year .
and yea so now i really dont know, but im really agreeing with you on the fact that we should let God hold the pen, and its really going to be hard, been there a few times, failed in the end.
but yea God is not and never forcing our choice, like dani says God is a gentlemen
and also i was just reminded that if we keep our hands full we can never recieve what God wants to give us,
unless we empty our hands....
yeap, well let me know when u made the decision, and...yea we will work hand in hand with God, praying for each other!! :) and walking step by step together YET individually and specially with God :)))
- Janicee
Love you Lydia and jiayouuu :)))
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
"When God Writes Your Love Story"...
The Author Of Love
you know while talking to you on skype, i showed you a book? yup! it is called "when God writes your love story..." its a very good book apparently. it is written in a form of a story, a true story of a couple whose love story is a solid example of a God designed love story. okay i have not read the entire book yet, just the first few chapters. However, i have picked out quite a few good pointers that we should remember and take note especially during these periods : )
Well, it started with the awakening call of leslie, the female. and this is what she sensed God speaking to her, " you continue to get your heart broken because you are holding the pen of your life and trying to write your own story. i am the Author of True Love. I am the Creator of romance. I know your heart's every desire. I want to script a beautiful tale just for you, but first you must give me the pen to Me. You must let Me become the center of your existence. You must let Me have total control of your love life, and every other area of your life as well..."
well, i have personally seen how God has blessed me mightily, but honestly, i do not like the idea of letting God totally take control of my life. like seriously, it aint easy and you can say that it aint human like as well. i guess we are all creatures that like to do things our own way, which we all know is foolish. However, it is really easier said than done. Even i am facing trouble with this. However, what choice do we have? Do we want the God given love story?!
The authors describe God's scripted love story as something you would be addicted to. Once you experience God's love story, you wont want the world dating and etc anymore. You have taste the sweetest fruit! Many of us dream, especially you and i (cause we are romantic people), of hollywood romance and the white knight riding the white horse etc. However, i myself have seen the ugliness and imperfect love story of so many people's relationships till i cant believe this kind of love exist. there are always horrible quarrels, break ups, divorce etc. However, the authors of this book reassured me that Yes! this love does exist. And it exist only if God is the AUTHOR OF OUR LOVE STORY.
Psalms 18:30 says, " As for God, His way is perfect; the word of the Lord is proven; He is a shield to all who trust in Him..."
I believe that God always wants the best for us (Jer 29:11) And when our lives is in God's hands, He wont destroy it but instead, make us prosper. When we trust Him, He protects us from hurts!
***
So as you know, just now on skype i was freaking out and everything. Seriously, i am just too afraid of losing the one i love. However, isnt it ironical if i ask God to take control of my life yet i still steer the boat to my direction?! I dont know. Time and time again i wonder whether am i really letting go or am i making the choices and asking God to bless them. Ya, and you know i was talking to our female pastor and my mum. I just felt like crap. i dont know what to do! everything leads to something bad (according to what i think) and then i opened this book and i read this...
"Based on Matt 5:3-5, you are blessed when you are out of options and all you can do is lean on God. Because when you realise your need for God, it is only then that you tap into His immeasurable greatness and goodness. You are blessed when you have been stripped of that which is most precious to you. Only then can you be tenderly embraceed by the One most precious to you."
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT THIS JANICE?
anyway, thats all i read for now, and i am sooo going to continue reading. i bet right now you are talking about things we discussed earlier with someone and i pray the best for you. Do fill me in!
Thanks Janice for today's talk, i am not so confused now, but i think i really have to pray to God. I have a few more days before the weekend. I really want the relationship to work out, and i know the only way it can is that God has to be in the picture. He has to lead us on and not we drag Him as a blessing ornament. God is God! He is to be in control with the authority.
May God just speak to us...
(sorry for the wordy post!)
Lydia.
you know while talking to you on skype, i showed you a book? yup! it is called "when God writes your love story..." its a very good book apparently. it is written in a form of a story, a true story of a couple whose love story is a solid example of a God designed love story. okay i have not read the entire book yet, just the first few chapters. However, i have picked out quite a few good pointers that we should remember and take note especially during these periods : )
Well, it started with the awakening call of leslie, the female. and this is what she sensed God speaking to her, " you continue to get your heart broken because you are holding the pen of your life and trying to write your own story. i am the Author of True Love. I am the Creator of romance. I know your heart's every desire. I want to script a beautiful tale just for you, but first you must give me the pen to Me. You must let Me become the center of your existence. You must let Me have total control of your love life, and every other area of your life as well..."
well, i have personally seen how God has blessed me mightily, but honestly, i do not like the idea of letting God totally take control of my life. like seriously, it aint easy and you can say that it aint human like as well. i guess we are all creatures that like to do things our own way, which we all know is foolish. However, it is really easier said than done. Even i am facing trouble with this. However, what choice do we have? Do we want the God given love story?!
The authors describe God's scripted love story as something you would be addicted to. Once you experience God's love story, you wont want the world dating and etc anymore. You have taste the sweetest fruit! Many of us dream, especially you and i (cause we are romantic people), of hollywood romance and the white knight riding the white horse etc. However, i myself have seen the ugliness and imperfect love story of so many people's relationships till i cant believe this kind of love exist. there are always horrible quarrels, break ups, divorce etc. However, the authors of this book reassured me that Yes! this love does exist. And it exist only if God is the AUTHOR OF OUR LOVE STORY.
Psalms 18:30 says, " As for God, His way is perfect; the word of the Lord is proven; He is a shield to all who trust in Him..."
I believe that God always wants the best for us (Jer 29:11) And when our lives is in God's hands, He wont destroy it but instead, make us prosper. When we trust Him, He protects us from hurts!
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So as you know, just now on skype i was freaking out and everything. Seriously, i am just too afraid of losing the one i love. However, isnt it ironical if i ask God to take control of my life yet i still steer the boat to my direction?! I dont know. Time and time again i wonder whether am i really letting go or am i making the choices and asking God to bless them. Ya, and you know i was talking to our female pastor and my mum. I just felt like crap. i dont know what to do! everything leads to something bad (according to what i think) and then i opened this book and i read this...
"Based on Matt 5:3-5, you are blessed when you are out of options and all you can do is lean on God. Because when you realise your need for God, it is only then that you tap into His immeasurable greatness and goodness. You are blessed when you have been stripped of that which is most precious to you. Only then can you be tenderly embraceed by the One most precious to you."
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT THIS JANICE?
anyway, thats all i read for now, and i am sooo going to continue reading. i bet right now you are talking about things we discussed earlier with someone and i pray the best for you. Do fill me in!
Thanks Janice for today's talk, i am not so confused now, but i think i really have to pray to God. I have a few more days before the weekend. I really want the relationship to work out, and i know the only way it can is that God has to be in the picture. He has to lead us on and not we drag Him as a blessing ornament. God is God! He is to be in control with the authority.
May God just speak to us...
(sorry for the wordy post!)
Lydia.
The Talk , The Trust.
" Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your path straight."
-proverbs 3:5
i know in this period its really hard,
it feels like we are playing the villian.
but God is in a way merciful to us because we and they will have each other to go through it with
and we may be able to support one another through the understanding, and wisdom God or others speaks to us individually :)
a period of trust, says God. but no longer a full stop there since He created Adam and Eve, but a comma,
because He continue to say " but a choice given to you." :)))
God knows how hard is it, and no matter what decision you make it will never seperate us from the love of God. and He will continue to help us through it, even though time and time again it will hurt Him.
how do i know?
because i been through that and i knew God's character through that. i choose no but God from last year till today, still open the choice to me and still giving me a choice to trust in Him and each and everytime, He will accompany you and not forsake u :) (hebrews 13:5)
like what God told me in Camp Christos, " no longer a hypocrite, but a friend that walks together with another friend to conquer the situation together :) "
God also reason with me saying... " maybe, he will be able to grow closer to me (God) through this desicion :)) "
hurts may come, but God is there and we'ill just have to see whether will they chose to grow closer to God or... yeap. and yea then the answer may be a step closer.
im afraid and im sure you are. but yeap..:))
hahaha just a sharing of what i have gone through hehehe :)
in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your path straight."
-proverbs 3:5
i know in this period its really hard,
it feels like we are playing the villian.
but God is in a way merciful to us because we and they will have each other to go through it with
and we may be able to support one another through the understanding, and wisdom God or others speaks to us individually :)
a period of trust, says God. but no longer a full stop there since He created Adam and Eve, but a comma,
because He continue to say " but a choice given to you." :)))
God knows how hard is it, and no matter what decision you make it will never seperate us from the love of God. and He will continue to help us through it, even though time and time again it will hurt Him.
how do i know?
because i been through that and i knew God's character through that. i choose no but God from last year till today, still open the choice to me and still giving me a choice to trust in Him and each and everytime, He will accompany you and not forsake u :) (hebrews 13:5)
like what God told me in Camp Christos, " no longer a hypocrite, but a friend that walks together with another friend to conquer the situation together :) "
God also reason with me saying... " maybe, he will be able to grow closer to me (God) through this desicion :)) "
hurts may come, but God is there and we'ill just have to see whether will they chose to grow closer to God or... yeap. and yea then the answer may be a step closer.
im afraid and im sure you are. but yeap..:))
hahaha just a sharing of what i have gone through hehehe :)
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